As much as I’ve wanted to write over the last few days, I’ve had so many thoughts flying around inside my head about insecurities, worries or what I should be doing, that I can’t even think straight. It’s been so overwhelming and I’m not afraid to say that I’ve really struggled to stay focused or positive.Read More »
This month has been crazy hectic. With so much going on, I’ve not really had chance to write about what I wanted to. However, with this week being Trans Awareness Week, I thought I’d make the time – especially as it’s also been an important couple of weeks for me. A perfect chance to reflect on recent events.
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Coming out as transgender doesn’t magically fix or make the gender dysphoria go away. It just…eases it. Slightly. It eases the pressure, allowing for a bit of breathing space so I can focus on my next move in this continuous battle. Most days are good, which makes things easier to manage. Some days are bad. Today was a really fucking bad day.Read More »
Last night I got to catch up some awesome friends who I’ve not seen since I announced to the world that I’m transgender. They’re also the band who gave me my name: Eva Plays Dead. I don’t want this to be an unhappy post but a few things did happen last night which left me very unsettled.Read More »
Until recently, my life didn’t really have any kind of future. To be perfectly honest, I never even expected to make it this far. I am pretty surprised. I always thought that living a lie would be the end of me. Even after accepting yourself, not knowing how the world will accept you is a big thing. You end up latching onto things that you see and use it to protect yourself. Little white lies for the sake of self-preservation. The biggest lie for me was that the world would hate who I am.Read More »