1 Day To Go…

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Ok, so tomorrow is definitely the day I go to my doctor. I’m excited, nervous and also freaking out. My anxiety is off the chart right now. I know it’s what I want and therefore what I need to do, but stepping into the unknown is always scary. As I was taught in therapy: the more I do it, the more it becomes…ok, and normal. Problem is, a part of me struggles to feel normal.Read More »

Houston, We Have A Problem

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Oh fuck. I dug out the appointment card for my doctor’s appointment ready for tomorrow and found it said Friday. I had Thursday based on what the receptionist told me last week as she handed me the card. I was so shocked to be making the appointment that I never even checked the card she gave me, I just went off what she said. After clarifying, the appointment is definitely on Friday. Well, this is both good and bad.Read More »

2 Days To Go…

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My head’s back to being a mess today. I didn’t sleep very well last night due to having so many thoughts. Another day closer to taking the first (big) step and my anxiety is going into overdrive. In an attempt to distract myself, I started to consider doing something about the negativity in my life – specifically the people I know on Facebook.Read More »

3 Days To Go…

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Today is a slightly better day than yesterday. I think being back at work gave me something to focus on, so I didn’t have to drown in my own thoughts. In 3 days time, I will be going to see a doctor about all of this. They’ll be the first complete stranger I tell. I’m worried. Worried about how they’ll react, whether they’ll judge me or what they’ll even say.Read More »