Head Or Heart?

Despite being really apprehensive about it, I had a really great time last weekend. Phew!! Meeting my best friend’s boyfriend for the first time wasn’t too formal, which really helped my anxiety. He’s a nice guy. Seeing my best friend for the first time since telling her about everything wasn’t scary at all either. In fact, it had the opposite effect: it gave me more hope.

Why Me??

There are approximately 7.5 billion people on this planet. Each one is busy getting on with their lives, dealing with whatever each day throws at them. I’m 1 of those people, only I’m really having trouble dealing with each day. So many questions need so many answers, even at this stage. The main one is “why?” Of all the people on this planet, of all the possible lives it could happen to, why do I have to suffer with a gender identity problem?

So Many Questions, Not Enough Answers

So following on from my last (and first) post, things have been weird. I can’t put my finger on it if I’m totally honest. I feel scared, worried, ashamed and even disgusted. But at the same time, I feel a slight sense of relief. Like I’ve just bought myself a bit more time.