The Good, The Bad & The Really Ugly Days

Coming out as transgender doesn’t magically fix or make the gender dysphoria go away. It just…eases it. Slightly. It eases the pressure, allowing for a bit of breathing space so I can focus on my next move in this continuous battle. Most days are good, which makes things easier to manage. Some days are bad. Today was a really fucking bad day.

Seriously, What’s The Point?

Unfortunately I’m back on the planet now. It’s been so busy today that I’ve no been able to take any more painkillers to stay doped up. I miss it so badly. That feeling of calm and peace. I need it. Especially as I’m now left with stuff to deal with. Stuff that I don’t want to deal with. More specifically: stuff I can’t deal with. I feel like I’m back to the chaos of my situation. I’m already having to take the painkillers more often and in increased doses as they don’t seem to zone me out as much now.