Take Your Seats To Watch As I Destroy

Tickets

First of all (and I know it’s late)…HAPPY NEW YEAR!! What did you get up to? I hope your year is off to a good start? I spent the last few days of 2017 and the first few days of 2018 with my other half visiting my best friend and her family in Newquay. It was the first bit of time out I’ve had in a looooooong time. Much needed after such a whirlwind 2017.Read More »

The Good, The Bad & The Really Ugly Days

Out The Window

Coming out as transgender doesn’t magically fix or make the gender dysphoria go away. It just…eases it. Slightly. It eases the pressure, allowing for a bit of breathing space so I can focus on my next move in this continuous battle. Most days are good, which makes things easier to manage. Some days are bad. Today was a really fucking bad day.Read More »

The End Of A Difficult Week

Isolated

So the week finished with mixed feelings. At times I was ok, but I was mainly drowning. I’m at the point where I’m seriously considering going back to the doctor’s before anything crazy happens and I do something stupid. I’ve been trying to figure out what is that’s causing this, hoping it’ll give me a clue as to how I can fix myself. But in all honesty, I don’t really know. Each day gives me a new suggestion for why I feel like this – but nothing certain.Read More »

Misery Never Goes Out Of Style

Scary Reflection

So far this week, I’ve been really struggling again. My moods have been erratic and I’ve become so irritable. I’m spending every waking moment trying to stay positive and motivated but, quite honestly, I’m losing the energy to keep going. Fighting depression is difficult. Really fucking difficult. No matter what I do to snap myself out of it, I just sink deeper.

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