The Good, The Bad & The Really Ugly Days

Out The Window

Coming out as transgender doesn’t magically fix or make the gender dysphoria go away. It just…eases it. Slightly. It eases the pressure, allowing for a bit of breathing space so I can focus on my next move in this continuous battle. Most days are good, which makes things easier to manage. Some days are bad. Today was a really fucking bad day.Read More »

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Peace Of Mind

World Mental Health Day

Today is World Mental Health Day. A day where we take the time to acknowledge something that a lot of people still struggle to talk about and/or suffer from. There are more people suffering from a mental health illness than most people realise. Today actually marks the 25th anniversary of World Mental Health Day. Didn’t know it’d been going that long? That’s because of increased awareness!!Read More »

Master Of Puppets

Manipulation

I’ve felt more isolated and withdrawn from the rest of the world recently. I can’t talk to my other half as it’s still a topic that’s ignored and I don’t want to bug my best friend about. Instead, I have millions of thoughts inside my head with nowhere to go. As much as I’d love to talk confidently about this to someone and keep feeling the need to say more to people about me, a bad experience in the past makes me think twice.Read More »

Late To The Party

Late Bloomer

A few days ago, as I logged into WordPress, I spotted a post by Rosa Zambonini in the “Recommended Posts” section, about her transgender daughter, Charlie. In her post (and her blog) it’s clear that Rosa’s support for Charlie is amazing. However, there was a point she made that really stood out to me. Something that very few people actually acknowledge or even realise when it comes to the transgender community: practice.Read More »

The Opposite Of Ohana

Lilo

I don’t think I’m ok right now. That’s the conclusion I’ve come to since my last post. As much as some weight has been lifted from me by telling my best friend and (sort of) telling my other half, I still feel really unhappy a lot of the time. I wish I could turn it off, but I can’t. If anything, I’ve realised that telling people has brought about other problems and pressures too, along with a lot of uncertainty – something which replaces some of the previous pressure.Read More »